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04:56 am: poem to my x
hehe ya this poem is umm kind of..mean..but oh well w/e,.....my x deserves it =)
the last line..its not true...bc i dont cheat on my bf's just to let u guys know..it just seemed like something good to put in..lol



Roses are dead,
Violets are too,
Im still in love,
But not with you.
You thought you hurt me,
And made me cry.
But i was in love,
With another guy.
Simply because you have,
No class,
All you can do,
Is kiss my ass.
You sit around,
And talk your shit,
So fuck you and your,
Little ass dick.
YOu thought you left me,
But i left you,
What my man is doing,
You cant do.
You tell your homies,
You played me like a bitch,
I tell my girls,
You have a little dick.
You said you loved me,
But it wasnt true,
Well guess what Mother Fucker,
I played you too!!

By: ~ Valarie Monnier ~

04:42 am: blah blah blah...
ya so well i found out that my x wants to get back together me with me now..he says that he realized that he really does love me and he wants me back bc im the only one that has been there for him in the end and the worest part is, he knows im with soucy..and he knows i love jon alot and that im not giving him up for anything!! but the other bad part is that my x knows that he was the person i have ever loved so he thinks he still has a chance..too bad i love jon and im walking away from him, its not worth it, sorry but thats how it is..u need to realize that we wont ever be together again. NeWaYs...ya me and jon are goin to see Unleashed to when he gets off of work...and then probly next friday we are gonna go see The Longest Yard!! =)
but ya well i have actualy started haning out with other ppl now..but it does suck bc now im lucky to c jon once every week.i see him usuasly every fridays and thats about it now..i haventy really spent time with him for like 2/3 weeks or so...seems so much longer...its so hard to spend time away from some1 u love so much and use to seeing them like everyday or at least 4 times a wk...but oh i have had fun haning with some1..it keeps my mind off of missing jon, for a lil anyway.im finaly getting some of my friends back,its gonna take time tho...it always does..but oh well idc how long it takes as long as i get them back!!
ok well im out
i love u so much jon!! =)






If you really cared,
Then why didnt you show it?
If you really love me,
Then why arent we together now?

I thought i was over you,
But when i get the
Chance i let you,
Back in my life.

I dont know what
To believe anymore.
Why are you just now telling
Me how you really feel?

I do miss you,
And no matter how
Hard i try not to,
I miss you even more.

No matter how
Hard ive always tried,
It never seemed to be,
Good enough for you.

Yes i am with
Someone esle now,
But that doesnt mean,
That ive forgotten about you.

I cant erase you,
From my past,
I cant delete you,
From my mind.

I cant pretend that,
I dont care,
I cant pretend that,
You are near.

I refuse to use a
Fake old grin but,
Then again I,
Will never win!

After all the things,
You put me through,
I cant seem,
To get over you.

I knew i loved,
You when there was,
Nothing you could do,
To make me leave you.

But then you did,
Everything to test my,
Love and now i,
Find myself walking away.

Sometimes no matter how,
Long or how hard,
You' ve loved someone they,
WIll never love you back!

I know that you say that,
You love me but,
Are you just saying it,
Or do you really mean it now??

By : ~ Valarie Monnier ~

10:52 am: i lied.. =/
ok maybe i havent...i jumped to conclusions too fast!! ya me jon are better now, we were/are just spending way too much together, so we are gonna hang wit other ppl like 2/3 days a wk....i'll miss him though, bc im so used to spending all of my time with him but this will helo our relationship out so ya. now the hard part is to find ppl to chill with bc i pretty much pushed all of the ppl i used to hang out with out of life well not out of my life but i just dont hang with them nemore.ya i met this really cool girl Ashley(i think thats her name) but ya she lives up the St. from, shes cool.i met her bc of liz, she was ova Ash's house the day i was walking home and ya.ya i might be doing kickboxing!! =)..hehehe..well im gonna go to bed..i didnt get ne sleep friday or saturday..so ya and i got school 2morrow..gurrr...i gotta get ready to see what Wescott has to say to me kno~jackass~hehe

Love u jOn

10:21 am: ive pretty much lost everything that matters
I have this feeling,
Burning deep inside,
Ive loved this person for so long,
But he only pushes me aside.

It's not that im desperate,
But he's the only one,
I cant hold on that long,
I have to face it... im done.

Is he just pretending,
When he tells me what he feels,
No one understands,
All they say is "you'll heal".

Lies are told,
Promises are spoken,
All this and more,
My so-called love has broken.

JUST GIVE ME A BLADE,
PAIN... LET ME FREE,
LET ME ESCAPE THIS TORTURE,
AND LET MY FEELINGS BLEED.

No one will ever notice,
This young girl is gone,
And to my so - called love,
"I cant hold on that long".

by ~val~

09:24 am: life is rly starting to suck
ya so well i ended up going to the gay carinval last night...ya Bacon, Eddie, Nathan, Bir Hasbrouck,Andrew Somer,Sheri and alot of other ppl were there. i was 'possed to go with Sam but i called her at like 8/8:30 and she deciceded not to go bc she had a "bad day" well it wouldve been noce if u called me and let me kno u werent going!!!Anywho...i ended leaving at like 9:30..jon wouldnt ride ne rides and we got in a fight...blah blah blah.lately i dont kno whats going on with him.but ya we're still fightin i havent talked to him since last night and who kno's if i'll even talk to him at all today..ive about had it with everything. hell even Wescott!!ya and last night i bought 30 tickets $25 soi wasted that $..i ended up givin my tickets to Bri...hope u enjoyed more me !!! ok well im goin..by..oh and hope u had fun a ur semi last night Rachael!!! =)..at least one of us had some fun

06:29 pm: blah
hey whats up...ya i havent wrote anything in here in a while oh well and this isnt gonin to be much either.....
guess what!!! me and jon will have been together for 9 MONTHS on the 4th..Wednessday!!!!!hehehe
love u hun!!
ya so i guess me and jay are no longer friends...i told him he couldnt come over and well all he had to say to me was" ur letting jon control u...dont let him" just bc i wouldnt let him..oh well w/e think whatever u want to jay..he's not controling me and by the way no1 does and never will.
but ya im gonna go c~ya later

love u jon!!

06:29 am: hey whats up...ya i havent wrote anything in here in a while oh well and this isnt gonin to be much either.....
guess what!!! me and jon will have been together for 9 MONTHS on the 4th..Wednessday!!!!!hehehe
love u hun!!
ya so i guess me and jay are no longer friends...i told him he couldnt come over and well all he had to say to me was" ur letting jon control u...dont let him" just bc i wouldnt let him..oh well w/e think whatever u want to jay..he's not controling me and by the way no1 does and never will.
but ya im gonna go c~ya later

love u jon!!

06:21 am: hey whats up...ya i havent wrote anything in here in a while oh well and this isnt gonin to be much either.....
guess what!!! me and jon will have been together for 9 MONTHS on the 4th..Wednessday!!!!!hehehe
love u hun!!
ya so i guess me and jay are no longer friends...i told him he couldnt come over and well all he had to say to me was" ur letting jon control u...dont let him" just bc i wouldnt let him..oh well w/e think whatever u want to jay..he's not controling me and by the way no1 does and never will.
but ya im gonna go c~ya later

love u jon!!

03:32 am: ok well yesterday me and tim mainyard met up with sam and walked down to adams house...ya that was fun. and then tim lost his cell and still cant find it..haha that sucks. ya and manny called me while i was ova adams and started yellin at me bc i told adam who i was talkin to and i yelled back and hung up on him hehe..oh well.. then me and sam went back to her house and then i called jay and got him to pick me up and bring me home and jon was already there so jay left.oh ya..guess what...bre camble got with Scott Hughes,friday night at the mall, ive heard this from like every1 that was at the mall friday too and now i kno for a fact its true..w.e i knew she was a hoe...and she lied to jon about not being at the mall when clearly she was..so there u go..shes a liar too. w.e..ya then today i was goin to g period and ashley bell pushed me i i pushed her back and turned around and asked her if she wanted to go and she was like" dont push me"(with her preppy annoying voice) and i walked over to her and this grl told both of us not to even start..so we all just walked away..it was pretty funny..bc i kno she cant fight so ya. ya today was a lo0oong day at school...it sucked! but ya ..lol bre durdon got her ass kicked friday night at chins graden!!haha and now shes sayin she didnt get her ass kicked and that she kicked thier ass!!riiiight..not in ur wildess dreams bre!!!haha omg...sam just called me and said that she has Tim's cell..lol we looked everywhere yesterday for it too and even in her bag and we couldnt find it but she just found it in her bag!!lol wow.ya so well break was well kind of boreing!! i got to spen time with jon...that was the only good thing about it.and cassandra came over thursday..i dyed my hair sunday, blue black..in some light u cant even see the blue but in the right light..u can really see it alot!! i like it. well im gonna go i need some sleEeEeEep!!

i love u jon!!!

10:42 am: Someday when you're all alone... Memories will make you see... Regret... Wish... and Cry... Memories of what you did to me!!
( u kno who u r ..but im sure u guys readin this dont..ask and u will find out)

I wish i was deaf...bc then i couldnt hear all your lies.

hummm ya so today i hung out with Cassandra and this Joey kid, i was 'possed to hang out with Manny but ya we were like playin "phone tag" all day lol. oh well theres always other day...humm lets see oh guess what sam..im already startin to have bad luck with my legs again this yr... i was walkin back home from DQ and i like missed the sidewalk or something and didnt see the lil thingy in front of me and i fell and like now i have a lil hole in my knee..and ya it hurts s0o0o extremly bad to walk on it...like i stood up and walked to my room and my knee just started popin...and its never ever poped the way it did tonight!!its all slowend and stuff but w.e i can deal...ok im gonna go for now

love u jon!! =)

06:34 am: quotes...
Mirrors cant talk and luckily for you they cant either

Hating me wont make you pretty

Girls are like rocks…..boys skip all the flat one’s.

AHHHHCHOOO…im sorry im allergic to bullsh**!!

Stupidity is not a crime…so you’re free to go!

Ya I kno its cute how you think im listening.

There are a lot of things I miss about our relationship… I’m just not sure you’re one of them!

Have a nice day, but don’t have it here.

It’s only funny until someone gets hurt… then it’s hilarious.

There’s no I in slut, but there’s a U.

Would you wear shoes if you didn’t have feet?… then why in the hell do you wear a bra?!

My door is always open… so feel free to leave

You don’t have to say you’re single, I can tell by the way you look.

Life is good, try to get one

I wish you were on TV, so I can switch you off!

If someone says something back to you, say “I have heard better comebacks from someone in a coma”

I’m not shy, I just don’t like you

If I throw a bone, would you leave?

Don’t piss me off… I’m running out of places to hide the bodies!!!

Remember the time I told you that you are cool? I lied!

Smoking could really kill a person, u should try it one day


(someone boring talking to you) “hold that thought, I need to do something” walk over and stare at a wall “yup, a lot more interesting”

If you don’t have anything nice to say, then come sit with us.

Sorry I have allergies… I’m allergic to ugly

You were one of the best games I ever played!

Oh I’m sorry… I don’t speak ugly!

Ewwww! What’s on your shoulders?… o0oooh! It’s just your head!!

I’m sweet like sugar, soft like suade, nut unlike you I never get played!

Roses are red, violets are blue, sugar is sweet and so are you, but the roses are wilting, the violets are dead, the sugar bowls are empty and so is your head.

I always have something to say, you don’t like it, get out of my way

Cheerleaders are happy, happiness sucks, cheerleaders clap, they look like ducks. They think their all that and a bag o’ chips! Well actually there a bunch o’ dits!!

Life isn’t a garden, so stop being a hoe!!!

I’m not smiling at you, I’m trying not to laugh!!
.....................haha ok ya im gonna come uo with my own...byz

04:32 am: ya so last night i didnt get any sleep at all..well i take that back i only got maybe an hour..i didnt go to bed til like 6am...then my mom came home at 7 or so in the morning and woke me up..so i couldnt fall back asleep...it sucks when u have alot of things on ur mind and u cant go to sleep..lets c then jon got here at 9/10am and ya we worked things out...and then he had to leave at like 2 to do help his dad do some more yard work..haha..ya hes possed to come back at like 7 or so and its only 4:30..guurrr
Kayla..i gotta see what ur hair looks,im sure it looks good =)
well hey im gonna go and try and get some sleep b4 jon comes back...ttyl

11:29 am: hey ok im backand its like 11:30 P.M.,...ya so me and jon are in ANOTHER fight..but i kno that we will be able to work it out, we've been through so much..im not about to let some retarted fight destory us!! but ya we are "'possed" to talk about it tomorrow..so ya hopefully the fight wont get bigger than it already is.we are still somewhat fighting about Dan Gonzalez and how Jon just like "pretends" Dan never tried to hook him up with another Jon said"oh well he's my best friend" and i told him"well if he's ur so called"best friend" then he wouldnt have ever even done that to u or me..i mean ya me and were best friends but u didnt see her going around tryin to hook me up with another guy..now thats a bf" and ya he kind of..well he did get pissed...bc im right and i just cant let something like that go... ya kno?..butidk..what do u think i should do..i mean bc this isnt the 1st time Dan did that so ya..i mean im so confussed..idk what to do nemore about anything..would u just say"ok well it was a misstake" and let it go even though its happend b4??will somebody plz just tell me what they think about this sitution...and what u'd do.in my mind..thats not a friend at all..i mean Dan was giving me advice and lyin to me the whole time and tryin to get me to break up with Jon(in my mind neways) and thats not something a friend would do.ive never had a friend go so low b4 in my life.and i thought it would never happen too...but be careful of who u trust these days..it can bite u in the ass 1 day.but ya anyways... ya so me and Kayla worked things out finaly, im really glad we did!! ya i gotta lay out in the sun this wk!! im thinking about dyin my hair that Blue Black color..what do u think?? i think that it MIGHT look ok but im not sure....well im going to go for now...oh it was nice talking to u 2nite Kayla...=)

i love u Jon...with all my heart and no matter how bad this fight might get...i'll never give up on us..i kno that we can get through this..even if we dont meet eye to eye on some things...love u

well im goin to try and get SOME sleep bc its like 12:00 now and ya i kno i wont be in a good mood tomrrow if i dont get at least a lil of sleep..and i need to be in a pretty good mood tomrrow too

08:50 am: ya so jon went over eddie's today to help him move and bacon was there too,well there were 2 beer cans and they needed to be poured out and so bacon told jon to throw it to him and well bacon missed it and the can hit him in the eyebrow and he had to go to the
hospital and got 4 stiches and jon said that if there wasnt any blood on his face that u could see the bone, and that was how deep the cut was..but bacon is ok.lol jon said that he asked bacon"so who do u think will be the 1st person to hit me" and bacon said"Val!!" so then jon said "ok who do u think will hit me the hardest?" and bacon told him"deff val!" lol..haha thats kind of true, if i heard he hit him purpossely then ya prob hit him lol ...but ya....lol... Valliiebabiie69:do u happen to kno where jay metcalf is? Walshe 73: no ... and honestly, i dont care ... hopefully he droe his car off a cliff valliiebabiie69: lol omg
valliiebabiie69: ya he randomly texted me for some odd reason.
hehe thats funny!! well hey thats a 1st, im not the one being mean lol =)...ok well im gonna go bc jon is possed to be callin me ..like now..so ttyl
love u jon!!

08:34 pm: "Fubu shirt-$100,Rocca Wear sweatshirt-$80, Sean Jonh hat-$50, Realizing you're white..Priceless"(hehe my favorite one...its so0o true lol)

"what does Micheal Jackson and a PS2 have in common?
They are both made of plastic and little kids turn them on!"

"Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day; teach that man to use the internet and he won't bother you for weeks"

"Officer, i swear to drunk im not God!"

"She gets her looks from her dad, he's a plastic surgeon"

"Men are like a deck of cards: you need a heart to love them, a dimond to marry them, a club to beat them, and a spade to burry the bastards"

08:26 am: ..ya every1 is still sleepin,'cept me of course..idk, i always tend to wake up early..gurrrrr.......ya and i think Cassandra is mad at me, bc i couldnt go over last night..oh well i guess she'll have to get over it( not to be mean or nething)humm lets see what to talk about...idk...well things are FINALY better between me and jon...for now. ya it sucks he has to work everyday during vaca.!gur!..ya he was over last night...he wasnt feeling good at all, hope his feeling better,it sucks for him bc he has to work to go today too like now actualy.hummm...ya mom and randy are FINALY not figthin for now...shes stayed the night friday and last night...who knows maybe even tonight!=)...but ya so neways...humm so what day sam, monday, or tuseday..o0o0 crap i never told u,yet. o well i'll tell u later.gurr my back is killing me, jon told me that i need to get a doctor to check it out bc its not possed to pop the way it does all the time,sa u kno how bad it always pops..well its worse now!it sucks..dont ever start popin ur back...u'll have it keep doin it.well im goin to go and get some food now.ttyl

love u jon!!=)

04:21 am: You and me
We used to be together
Every day together always

I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end

It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real,
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

Our memories
They can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening

As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me
I can see us dying ... are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

hehe can u tell im bored out of my mind...hey but this is the best song ever!=)

02:48 am: ya so things seem to be getting better here lately. yay finaly spring break..hehe me and tim,liz,shelly,sam,alicia,..humm who esle..idk cant remember all the ppl..lol...but y6a cant wait to hang! ya so jon met cassandra and he like doesnt like her at all...well i guess alot of ppl dont..from what every1 has said about her..but shes cool..ya we hung out yesterday and ended up going to her house and then to DQ and we walked by tim s. house to c if he was home...but he wasnt.oh well.omg todd m almost got in a fight w some kid in gym today..it was so funny..he thinks he's so strong and the thing is the kid deff wouldve taken todd...like that! and the todd gets in D period (history) and he compelty changed the whole story around...of course he just had to try and make himself look good and "big and bad". ya then he started rly gettin on my nerves and i finaly told him to shut up and that hes annoyin and rakel agreed lol.well hey he is..its not my fault the truth hurts.ya and bre camble appolized to me this moring...well i heard the only reason she did that was bc she found out that i found out she was talkin trash about me...and she wont admitt to saying w/e she said about me bc i guess she know's better to say she did say it..hell that was the whole purpose of her appolizing to me so i wouldnt like go and say something to her about it and so she could get away w it (in her mind at least)..but ya i heard that she has started up again talkin more crap...but w/e...things are good i dont really care about what she thinks of me or has to say about me..bc she doesnt even kno me but im gonna go for now


love u jon!!

02:46 am: haha bre camble ur so dumb..do u honetly think that ppl are not going to tell me what ur saying about me seriously!! ya i just love how u say that "val is such a slut,i could kick her and shes all talk" haha too bad jared told u that "ya val can and will kick ur ass" so if u rly wanna find out..then go for it.im done with all this immature bs and ur a lil 8th grader..u shouldnt even think for 1 second that u could kick a 17 yr olds ass...and by the way ur the 1 thats all talk!!i suggest u shut ur mouth...i mean i can understand if i was going around talking crap about u and saying im going to kick ur ass but im not now am i! get a lyf!!
but neways...ya and dan..im sry to hear about what happend!!she doesnt derverse u anyways!!u can do ALOT better!!
ok well im going...im possed to be hanging out with Cassandra like around 3 or so...so ya ttyl

love u jon!!

03:38 am: ppl
haha racheal u missed it 2day in math...bre is back to runnin her mouth...ya she says that i "cry and never say nething back to her when she says stuff about me"and then she called me a "fat cunt" and jon told her to say it to me and she said"fine i will"and jon said that she like ran when the bell rang to go home...hell i was waitin for her too!lets c then bre camble....well ur just dumb beway..u think that ur all big and tough
but ur just like bre durdon....all talk...go figure!!but w/e im goin so i explain these thing to ppl....ppl are so0o dumb these days...words always gettin twisted and ppl cant say nething to ur face.....so retarted...if ur gonna say something...then say it dont be all scared about it!!!